A fool can't play the wise but the wise can act a fool

been slackin on my mackin like a mutha, but it's all gravy

mad muthatfuqas just up and stopped writing all together, adding to more stress in trying to locate alternative voices and thoughts that i want to read. there's plenty out there, i just ain't feelin 'em all.

so anyways, it's type hectic in this life sht right now.

from regular growing pains, to new leaves, mushy sht, and niggarama, it's a wonder what busy people do to keep themselves sane...cuz i ain't even that much of a busy no mo.

yes, it's damn near 3pm on a monday and i'm BS'ing, but i got a flexible gig like that, and whut.

Fuck what your ego say
Don't take shit for granted homey we don't play
All's fair in love and war, piece of cake
But beef is rare like a bloody piece of steak

hell, i can't even remember all that's been going on to give an adequate recap aside from saying that i'm trying my best to walk the straight and narrow and and thankful i got some good people on my team to hold me down.

like the atlantic's waves or a geechie creek's tide, the high and lows of this year are a mix of joy, frustration, enlightenment, and tension.

each day i take a step to be more activein the lives of local youth and then it seems a step backwards was taken at the same time.

Love or fear, the fear last longer
But love is stronger, so I stay loyal to love with honor
You got those who wanna take that for weak
Be prepared, they'll test you in front of your peeps

for example, i hit up critical breakdown last night. it was a great event, good and boisterous crowd, and dope performances. but i'll be damned if less than 10 minutes the show was to end, a fuqing fight broke out upstairs. just and ugly ending to a beautiful event with a focus of proving a safe, drama-free space for youth expression. same shT, different decade is all that runs through my mind. but then i can kinda feel the apprehension of adults to even get involved. on one hand, you wanna jump in and break sht up, but then you don't wanna end up getting shanked your damn self. so it's a catch-22 that's existed for a long time, yet no resolution ever seems clear. make me think of the stories my grandfather used to tell me about his teen gangs on the Lower East Side back in the late 40's and 50's.

You'll never fit up in my shoes so don't try 'em on
I always tear it up, I'm 'bout as calm as a quiet storm
Legendary lyricist, nice guy persona
My songs celebrate life and you can play 'em for your momma

ummm

Took a brother's life with a knife as his wife
Cried cause he died a trifling death
When he left his very last breath
Was I slept so watch your step

We got street soldiers and heat holders that go
click-click-click in the night
Streets watched and raised me
But I ain't crazy
So I'll give you a dollar for thoughts
And a penny for your struggles

You see, we got modern-day martyrs
Models of modesty and mayhem
Drenched in pools of tears
Wept on consecutive nights
for young'ins that didn't make it past their formative years

I shed hidden teardrops everytime I hear shots licked
Single mothers gettin kicked in the womb post-partum
They didn't pardon my interruption
When I made my way down Blue Hill like Paul Revere
The niggas are near
The niggas are near

They fell on deaf ears finger-fuqed with fortified emotions
This roller coaster wasn't built
for the last to go first
So as we chase this black hearse and with a fifth of sumthin sweet
I send this one out to all the mothers
fighting for their children's lives against the evils of the streets

ummm...needs work but needed to be done

Women, War, and Violence

The Women's Studies Program at Northeastern University is holding a conference on "Women, War, and Violence" this Saturday, March 18, 2006.

Conference on the local, national, and global impact of war on girls and women

Saturday, March 18th, 2006
8:30am - 4:30pm
Northeastern University, Curry Student Center Ballroom

Keynote Speaker
Sima Wali
President, Refugee Women in Development, Inc.
Former Delegate to U.N. Peace Talks on Afghanistan

You can find the conference schedule online.

You can also register online. Students can attend for FREE, and there is a $50.00 registration fee for everyone else (there is a reduced rate for people registering through their community organizations).

You can contact Lihua Wang (617.373.4984) in the Women's Studies Program if you have questions.

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