i know you wanna enter, but i can't let you in

my mindstate's the madness
i'm gone with the wind


so much on my mind that I just can't recline...it's been a busy August. Got some calls and shout-outs on the bday and spent some chill time with some real chill peoples. the whole hip hop week stuff has wrapped up for the most part.

the hip hop reconstruction conference was a good look. mad youth came through. thought it was definitely chaotic, i felt everything fell into place as best it could given the logistics and other assorted details.

the concert...man....the concert was a blast. all the local acts did their thing, although i'm mad letia larok didn't perform misunderstood. and my man DL had to be flexible and rock without sound, just a mic and lyricall helping him out with some beat-boxing. he was heated afterwards, but i let him know that his set was one of the highlights. cl smooth did his thing although he came off abit too arrogant, but it's whatever. and rakim, although he showed up mad late, rocked the crowd like greatest rapper of all time should.

but maybe i am too much of an opptimist, because there's all kinds of disgruntled folks talking about this and that. it's whatever. in the end, it's about more than the music. more than egos. there's a much, much larger meaning. plus, i can think back to the very instant when we got the phone call in upstate ney york (rome to be exact) informing us that Trouble T-Roy had passed away. if you know anything about me, then you know what runs in my veins. well let's just say, it's like we all had lost a brother. Heavy D was like family thrice removed, but we used to dance, have parties, and do the damn thing like music was our 9-to-5. anyways, someone mentioned that the classic track TROY was one of their top five songs of all time and I'll be damned if I didn't want to say the exact same thing. Like I've said before, there's something about hip-hop that moves me, inspires me to do certain things, go in certain directions. That song held so much meaning to me through the years. So to see CL perform it live was like an honor. I can finally die happy now.

but not too fast. that true, true happiness is still somewhat elusive. i find myself still avoiding certain phone calls and emails simply because I know what I like. So I'll just try and max out these next few weeks before the midget returns and enjoy myself as much as I can. maybe love will come and find me. cuz i ain't looking. i'm all set, son. maybe take in a few concerts, plays, games, etc. maybe even an out-of-state field trip or two. lemme holla at priceline.