A More

i prefer to be one
with my
words
yet I occasionally find myself plagued with
casual insecurities
so i dug
in my spurs
and sparred with verbs
until
we
were all
on one accord

a single pilot on this flight
destined for a crash landing
with no airbags

just gas masks
and heavy luggage


because, you see, i am the simplest of men

i am the true blue blood pricked
from those same veins
of contempt that familiarity bred

i am to be neither contained
nor pigeonholed
the sum of my parts
is greater than my whole

because what was said was said
and for such openess i bled
from a wound seared deep beneath the surface
and it's cold outside but this ain't memphis
so there's no explanation for why i'm hot

i was birthed in the in the womb of my doom
punished for my sins
and admonished for my hindsight

i was cleansed of humility
and stripped of of my smile

it's gonna be a while for me to find hope once again
but it's gonna be aiight

because from that same bosom of hope lost
was borne a post-natal muse
atoning for fatal sins as a recluse
until we fell back
and let the cards fall as they may

they say whatever happens, happens, right?
but this game of Black Jack was never the chance I wanted to take
i'm risk-averse and ain't built for such vulrnerability

I am too proud to beg
and too weak to walk away

so my bags may be packed
but the flight ain't even booked yet

i got kicks on my feet
yet i am naked to the world's eye

i am afriad of the man i have become
bewildered by the man i used to be
and not sure which one to embrface and hold close
and which one to shun

so i will end each day as if the next had already begun

and say

as i lay me down to sleep
i pray my soul he'll keep
so please bless us and those that we love
my heart i hope you can heal
and to my mind provide guidance from above

because

i

am

love

amen