Feel the blast from the silencer

I fear for the eighty-five that don't got a clue
How could he know what the fuq he never knew?
-Ol' Dirty Bastard f/ Method Man, Raekwon, "Raw Hide"

We all know the worldly quote from Nelson Mandela's inauguration that starts with, "our greatest fear," which was originally penned by Marianne Williamson. So before I get into parts 2 and 3 of the WWYDIYWA series, I figured I need to assess the situation first, nahmean?

I fear...

losing my way
losing my job
losing my love of hip-hop
losing hip-hop
not wining
losing

instability
unhappiness
not giving a fuq
not fulfilling my dreams
no longer being able to dream

having to move back home
not being able to relate
not having enough in my emergency fund
missing all my jump shots
getting shot in the face

sinking in the ocean of consulting
not getting into a doctoral program
not realzing that a doctorate is not for me until too late
seeing sis get hurt again
not finding that right love
losing love
talking too much about mushy shT like love that I become mister r&b

having regrets
letting my current kids down
getting rejected
getting accepted with lukewarm receptions
the midget feeling for me how I feel for Big Red
not seeing the midget become a kid, teen, graduate, employee, adult, owner, parent, grandparent
dying having left no mark other than incurred debt and these words
...that I've omitted something